Beauty in the Breaking

Beauty in the

Breaking

This was written a few weeks ago, so I figure I'll go ahead and publish it...

So these past few weeks have not been the easiest. I’ve faced some old demons, lost a great friend, and had some rather difficult decisions to make. In the midst of the insanity, I was able to attend the state-wide ladies’ retreat. What a tremendous blessing! I heard this song for the first time that ministered to me on a level I had forgotten could be reached. It touched me in a place I thought I had hidden and buried forever. God began to change and remake something in me. He renewed a place in my heart and gave me back a desire and a love I thought I had lost.

You Are For Me

So faithful, so constant, so loving and so true,

So powerful in all You do.

You fill me, You see me, You know my every move.

You love for me to sing to You.

I know that You are for me! I know that You are for me!

I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness and

I know that You have come down even if to write upon my heart

to remind me who You are.

So patient, so gracious, so merciful and true,

so wonderful in all you do.

You fill me and You see me! You know my every move and

You love for me to sing to You, Lord!

I know that You are for me! I know that You are for me!

I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness!

I know that You have come down even if to write upon my heart

to remind me that

I know that You are for me! I know that You are for me!

I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness and

I know that you have come down even if to write upon my heart

to remind me who You are!

I had forgotten the love that God had for me. I was so lost and so broken. For those that know me, you know how hard of a place this is for me. I felt so lost in the cares and the decisions of this life, that I forgot that God is for me. He knows my weakness and my imperfections, yet He is so faithful, constant, loving, true, powerful, so patient, gracious, so merciful, so knowing, and even when I didn’t deserve it, He reached His hand out and extend mercy. He is constantly reminding me who He is! He is the God that defeated death, the God that created everything that is by a simple word. He holds the waters in the span of His hand. When the enemy comes in like a flood, He’s the God that rides upon the waters. He will not let me drown.

          A few weeks ago, I was able to go to the beach with a few friends and as we walked up the beach, I started to pick up seashells. I noticed that one of my friends was looking intently across the beach- searching. I ask her what she was looking for and she simply replied, “Some whole ones.” I smiled and continued looking. As I looked down, I realized that I hadn’t picked up a single whole shell, but rather broken pieces, each shaped and ragged by the sea that threw them up onto the sand. Each piece contained a different beauty, somehow unique when compared to the others. I began to think about how these shells were a perfect representation of me. It takes a special quality to see the beauty in brokenness. Somehow, God does it every day. He sees the waves that come and crash upon me, somehow chiseling away yet another piece of me. In the end, I may be something that was broken, but I will be different and beautiful.

          I’m reminded of the Potter’s wheel. When a potter wants to change a vessel, He will put it into the fire Himself and melt or even break the clay to restore it to the molding position. My prayer has changed from just “God make me what You need me to be” to “Not only make me what You want me to be, but also never let me become so hard hearted, and so strong in my own will, that I will not allow myself to be put back in the heat, broken, and back on the Potter’s wheel to be fixed and remolded.”

          This song had ministered to me on several occasions, because the words hold such a strong truth to many of the situations I’ve faced. In these dark places, God has simply wrapped me in His arms and held me and said, “Through it all, I’ll be here.”

Through It All

Can I write a song for You when I’m feeling blue, when I’m down and no one’s there?

Or compose a melody that’s in the key of love when no one cares?

Or can I smile; can I smile when it’s not always worth my while?

Can I trust in You when I’m going through in the middle of my trial?

This is what He says…

“And through it all, through all the hurt and all the pain that does surround you and through it all, and through it all, I will be there.

Just call my name and I’ll be right there to wrap my loving arms around you and through it all and through it all, I will be there.”

See but it’s so much easier said than done, to trust You even hard times come.

But when my faith begins to fail, I can hear Your voice say,

“I’m here to catch you when you fall, I’ll be right here.

When there’s no way out and you need a miracle, I’ll be right here.

And even when You walk away from me, through it all, I’ll never leave you…

And through it all, through all the hurt and all the pain that does surround you and through it all, and through it all, I will be there.

Just call my name and I’ll be right there to wrap my loving arms around you and through it all and through it all, I will be there.”

“When you can’t find the faith, been hurt so many times that your heart won’t stop breaking and you’ve been praying for a brighter day, when you’ve been feeling like your prayers are not enough, don’t throw in the towel and don’t you dare give up, no! Square your shoulders, hold your head up, learn to trust in Me, cause I’ll be right there through it all!!”

So when you can’t fight the pain and the heartache and you feel like your prayers are not enough

and you can’t find the strength to make it through the day,

look up for all your help comes from above.